Half way there...

Here is my 20 week half way photo on the beautiful beach in Punta Cana! 

It's a....

GIRL!!! We found out on April 21st that our little munchkin is actually our little princess! I can not tell you how excited I was to hear that. The whole car ride to the gender scan was rather tough for me as I was afraid they would tell me it was a boy and I knew I'd be a little disappointed. Little girl has been kicking up a storm lately and has played in a few softball games already. Not other major updates to report at 22 weeks...

18 weeks

We are officially 18 weeks and I have been feeling kicks. Totally different from the fluttering I was feeling over the last few weeks now I totally feel what seems like someone is flicking me with their finger from the inside. I have to admit this is a beyond cool feeling. I know Jon won't be able to feel for a bit still but I may try to have him listen with a stethoscope (not sure this works but we will try!). We find out the gender in a two and a half weeks right after we come home from our honey/baby moon! :) can't wait to get away and enjoy some is time before our little bundle gets here!!  Also can't wait to register and get the nursery ready! So many exciting things happening!

16 weeks

So I haven't blogged in quite some time but not too much has been missed. Since we announced our pregnancy we have been overwhelmed with well wishes and congratulations. It's a wonderful feeling and watching my belly grow has helped me connect with this little miracle.

Week 13 we were able to get another ultrasound (this ultrasound is the one that checks for fluid behind the baby's neck to help determine if there are chromosomal issues) I also had some blood work done which will be repeated tomorrow to compare markers.  Here is a picture of our precious little one. 

That is it's foot straight up in the air (I'm going to be in big trouble when I can actually start feeling those kicks!). Heartbeat was great at 159bpm :)

Week 14 was pretty uneventful.  The baby was able to enjoy it's first concert at Hershey. We went to see Darius Rucker - we had a blast

Week 15 we took a trip to Pittsburgh to see the Flyers/Penguins game.  

You can see the start of my little baby bump in this picture :) 

The Flyers won both games this weekend against the Pens (a clear sign the baby should be and WILL be a Flyers fan)

This was the baby's first long car ride and we managed fairly well aside from me getting the flu.  I developed some symptoms on Saturday afternoon once we got to Pittsburgh and the doctor confirmed my flu test on Monday. I haven't been to work since Monday morning :(  The crappy thing is that these sick days are taking away from my maternity leave.  

This poor child has been through quite a bit since it's been growing inside of me.. Every month we have experienced something else.. I go for a check up today so hopefully all is still well with our little one.  

We will hopefully find out if our peanut is a boy or a girl after we get back from our honey/baby moon on April 21st :)  I am thinking of doing a gender reveal party so we probably won't announce until that following weekend.  Stay tuned!! 

Hello 2nd trimester

We are at the 13 week mark and I am finally in my 2nd trimester. Here's hoping that this trimester is a little less complicated then the last.  I will say it sure did end with a bang or should I say myself as a big ball of emotions. 

In the first trimester I have gone through 2 cases of fifths disease at one of the schools I teach in (1 during week 7 the last in week 12). I have had to reschedule my first "real prenatal" appointment multiple times because of snow storms. Most recently I had to schedule a screening in less then a week.  I had asked my OB if I could get it scheduled since the last date it can be done is 13 weeks 6 days and they assured me the it's ok and we will discuss it at my appointment (12w3d). So, I got my script with 6 days to try to get in for the screening and wouldn't ya know the office they were sending me to doesn't even open til a week after I need the test done. The other office they were using needs the referral sent to them and they will call me to schedule. Thankfully the lady I talked to agreed to schedule my appt without the referral. Of course they were booked up until Monday which just happens to be the last possible a I can get this screening. Oh, and guess what - we are expecting a possible snow storm that may drop another 10" of snow on us Sunday into Tuesday. Yep, can't catch a break. 

I know this screening is optional but it is something I want to have done since I had a previous miscarriage and want to be assured that this baby is healthy.  Is it the end of the world if I can't get it? Of course not but I'm just frustrated and annoyed my OB wouldn't let me schedule before my blood work up and office visit knowing my window was so small. This didn't make for a good morning for me but thankfully I have some great coworkers who helped me through it.

My news has been shared on Facebook and at both schools so we have made it official. Here was our announcement: 

The Hainsey family is adding a new player to its roster in Sept! 

We are excited to meet our peanut and can not wait to see him/her again at our next ultrasound!

12 weeks!!

We are officially 12 weeks today. Working on week 13 :) with under 200 days to go until we meet our peanut! I've been feeling good with some minor discomfort right under my ribcage which I'm sure is nothing to worry about. I go for my blood work up and long dr appt with the billing dept, etc to go over all I need to know about my pregnancy. This appt was originally 2/3 and was rescheduled 2 times because of snow storms! Thankfully Friday is going to be 58 and rainy so no cancellation! We are waiting to announce our pregnancy until Friday when I hopefully will be able to hear the baby's heartbeat again and be a little more confident in the fact that baby Hainsey is still doing well. I will be going for my NT screen shortly after as that needs to be done before 14 weeks. This scan checks for chromosomal issues (Down's syndrome, etc). I'm hopeful that our baby will be healthy and developing correctly despite my previous miscarriage.  I'm definitely starting to show and most of that is because I had a little belly to begin with so the baby is just pushing my fat out, lol.  I haven't really gained any weight which worries me from time to time but they say that many don't gain a lot in the first trimester.  We will see what the doctor says when I go on Friday! 

11 weeks!!

We are 11 weeks today. I guess my biggest thing to talk about today is that all I thought about was how unattached to this baby I am. Jon has been distant as well and it hurts. It's no ones fault but neither of us are half as attached as we were when I was first pregnant. I feel terrible because this baby should be loved and feel love from the beginning. I'm not saying I don't love this little life growing in me but I'm having a hard time with it. I know it's because I'm afraid to get attached and lose this baby too but it still is upsetting and isn't fair. I'm struggling. I'm hoping when we announce our pregnancy that I will be able to connect a little better with our baby and I am definitely trying but I don't know how or what exactly I should do. It's not easy to let go of the fear but it's also not easy to know that you feel this way and that your baby is in a sense just there. I broke down about this topic tonight with Jon and being the loving and supportive bus an he is was there to let me know that it's ok and that it's hard and it's understandable. I do want our baby to know how much it's loved and how excited we are for September even if we haven't really shown it.  I'm keeping my fingers crossed I can get to my blood work appt and hopefully be reassured that all is well and that I have nothing to worry about. Lord please give me the strength.

10.5 weeks

We are almost at 11 weeks almost ready to tell the world we are again expecting! We are just counting down the days until the "riskiest" period is over. I have only have 1 appointment and my ultrasound at 7 weeks. I was scheduled for my 2 hr long color work up on 2/3 but because of weather I canceled and rescheduled which I had to reschedule again for weather. Well wouldn't you know my appointment is for Thursday and yup it's gonna be another snowy/icy day and I will probably have to reschedule once again.  Maybe I'll get this appointment done before I hit the 2nd trimester who knows.  

So far I still feel good. I haven't experienced morning sickness, cravings or any thing like that. I will say that I am breaking out more and that I am still tired but I have been managing that fairly well. Especially since I only had to work 1 day last week.  My tough days are when I coach at night. I'm typically in bed before 10am (some nights around 9!)  

I am trying my best to hide my slight baby bump. It's something I can no longer suck in to hide. I have been wearing maternity pants daily to help alleviate some of the discomfort. Guess I need to start shopping for some maternity shirts to hide my growing belly. 

Our little miracle

My bloodwork came back and my Hgc levels were almost 30,000 which means I was able to schedule my first ultrasound! Jon and I went this morning and we were able to see our little "blob" and we were able to hear its little heartbeat. How freaking cool. It is simply amazing how something so tiny can have such a strong heartbeat.  There is a little life growing inside of me. We are so excited to meet this little person!  They are sticking with 9/3 as the due date. The baby is measuring about 9mm. My mind is a little more at ease and my worries are slowly going away. I know things can still happen but seeing our little miracle and hearing a strong heartbeat definitely makes it easier.

7 weeks!

So we had our quick check appointment on Monday and I found out that I am further along then I had thought! I was using the wrong day to start calculating! According to our OB we are 7 weeks today. This makes me feel a little better knowing I'm further along and the baby is still hanging on. I was sent for bloodwork to check my hgc levels to see if they were high enough to get my first ultrasound and also to check my progesterone levels to see if I might need to add them into my routine.  I will be calling tomorrow to see if the results are in!  My first prenatal appointment is scheduled for Feb 3 that's my long appointment of bloodwork, etc..

The one thing I am noticing is that I feel extremely run down and that I have no control over my hormones. My emotions are everywhere. I'm not really experiencing any ms and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I don't! If I have to be tired all the time I'll take it as long as I don't have to deal with that craziness!

Continuing to pray for baby Hainsey to make a healthy entrance into this world in 33 more weeks...

Rough and Dirty

Laced up my cleats for the first time and quite possibly the last time of 2014... I entered our R&D girls in the Icebreaker tournament which is an indoor tournament at a local place called Maple Zone. This is the 2nd year our girls have played in this and the 2nd year we came in 2nd place. Tonight we played 4 games back to back without a break. I will admit I was nervous as all hell since we only had 9 girls and that meant I had to play the whole time. I've been doing everything I could for the last 6 weeks to not mess this pregnancy up so tonight was weighing heavily on my mind. I'm an outfielder so I at least had some distance between me and the batter.  I definitely wasn't on my "A" game but I hit really well and didn't screw up too bad in the field. I took it easy running and tried to avoid all contact/sliding. My stomach was off but that started when I got up from the couch so I'm thinking I might have pulled something.. So far, so good on the pregnancy front. Mommy definitely has a trooper in there!  I will keep saying my prayers and asking God to watch over us. At this point that's really all I can do.  

6 weeks tomorrow... Let's do this!

Further then last time...

I'm 5 and a half weeks pregnant today (38 days) which is just past where I was in my last pregnancy when we found out the pregnancy wasn't viable.  I have yet to really experience any early pregnancy symptoms.  The absence of symptoms worries me at times..  I keep thinking that no symptoms must mean the baby isn't growing.  I know that not all women experience symptoms and that it doesn't mean anything is wrong but it's hard. 

My first "quick check" appointment is scheduled for Monday afternoon.  I can't wait for them to tell me what I already know.  Honestly, until I have an ultrasound and see that everything is progressing normally I am going to continue to worry about losing this child.  Even after the ultrasound I'm going to continue to worry.  I have been trying to keep positive and not think about everything but it's challenging.  I'm hoping that after the doctors appointment on Monday my mind can be put at ease a little and I can start enjoying the fact that I am actually pregnant and that Jon and I will be bringing a tiny life into this world at the end of the summer. 

I'm totally excited, don't get me wrong.  I've come to accept the fact that I will not be playing softball this summer..  There's always fall ball, right? :) Jon plans to drink enough for the both of us on our honeymoon in April, so we have that covered.  I am excited for maternity clothes and an adorable baby bump.  Hoping I won't blow up like a balloon with a ton of extra weight!  I can't wait to pick out stuff for the nursery and register. 

Two of my close friends are pregnant and are expecting in July - so I'm happy that our baby will hopefully have some playmates around the same age :)  There are so many things to look forward to.  So many people have lost a child and have gone on to have a completely healthy baby and normal pregnancy.  I know that I can too.  My goal is just to remain positive and to try not to worry about things that I have no control over.  This is easier said then done of course.

4.7

Here we are almost 5 weeks along and last night I experienced some mild cramping. Of course the first thing that goes through my mind is that I'm having another MC or I guess at that stage it's considered a chemical pregnancy. Thankfully I was able to get to sleep and had no spotting or bleeding.  Talk about being in tune with your body. Every little feeling scares me. I'm not sure how I'm going to get through this first trimester but I'm praying every day that this baby is healthy and that I am able to carry to term and have a successful delivery.  I try to keep reminding myself that I am realitively healthy and that MCs are common but multiple ones aren't (unless there are underlying causes).  Positive thoughts and a lot of support are what I most need now. I have 7 more weeks to go before I'm even out of the riskiest period of pregnancy. I'm honestly not sure what I will do if I lose another baby but my guess is I won't try again for a long time. 

So for anyone who reads this blog please continue to send us positive thoughts and prayers and continue to be supportive of my roller coaster of a journey. It means the world to me!